累了~

我真的累了，一根蜡烛两头烧。。再加上心灵根本没得寄托。。

什么嘛？开始在乎了，总觉得别人都只会利用，总觉得好心没好报。。开始不想再做好人。。

一直得逞强，都不想给你看到我的悲伤。。害怕你哪可怜我的眼神。。可是那掩饰的武装，撑不住了。。害怕面对你的关心。。不需要你来安慰。。

开始造墙了，为了保护自己，堵住了所有通往你的世界的道路。。

这地方再也不属于我了。。开始要踏上新的旅程。。谢谢你给的伤痛，和美梦。。

风不会为谁停留，但一停留了，必有伤害。。

如果时间倒流，我选择不爱上你。。

A long recently~

Ugh..this blog is so dead..thx to the fb...hahaha..all my feelings and ideas all in fb...well, but I dont wanna give up on this blog since I paid my effort to make this blog nice and beautiful.

Been busy with studies and church. Time flies, is just like it is already half semester gone in just a blink of eyes. struggling to keep up with my studies...as usual hahaha...

I am dealing with depression for quite a long time, but now is all well now..hehe..my method? I think only I can use...I force myself to fake my happiness but then it become real happiness..woohoo..like this also can hor? anyway, I am enjoying my life now..erm, take away the study part..den I am fully enjoy...

Maybe I am getting old, I tend to forget things...and more and more ppl address me older than my age..==" Yea thx girls..now I got nick name liao...=="

Well, busy road ahead, treasuring any rest moment I have... children camp, presentation, AHHH..my life is so colourful..thx God =)

Thats all for now...dun feel like write in detail..haha and I ady forget most of it le...anyway, good luck and enjoy life guys..God Bless~

New Spec, New life, New Sem =)

The long holiday is only left one week, so much things happen, so much memories worth keeping... but life always goes on, so packs up the memories and moves on...

I haven get my future figure out yet, but now, I will just do my best out of everything...I can say I am a perfectionist in a way that no one recognize xD... I tend to achieve perfect only on the thing I wan.

There goes for me...relationship always not my strength..guess wad? I messed up again... i guess, i stay away from this kind of thing for awhile..

New sem is just around the corner...I dont know what to expect, pray that it is not out of my ability to handle..

Last,.life is never easy, but we are not alone... thx for those who stayed..

My best?

Just now went to watch "The Days Of Noah Apocalypse 2", although it cant compete with those mega movies...but it is very meaningful ... one of the quote they speak hit me.. he said, we do the best, God will do the rest.

I never though of this. My way of living this, effort vs result, with least effort to achieve best possible result, but the result never will be best as I no paying enough effort. I always like to ask people, use 50% effort to achieve 80% better or use 100% effort to achieve 100% better?

I tasted before, the feel of both paying 50% and 100% effort...100% effort is way better only if the result is 100%, but most of the time I have to suffer disappointment. and get beaten by that, then took a long time to get back up.

That quote make me wanna change my way of life, try to live stronger and aim higher!

解脱呢？~

习惯，对我来说是一个可怕的东西。习惯造成依赖，依赖让人慢慢不能独立。

每次都只会给别人加油，自己呢？安慰别人的话，永远安慰不了自己。

很多东西，明明知道不足了，却没办法改变。

眼里的未来，一片黑暗，因为胆小吗？

每天，告诉自己要加油了，却不知从哪开始。

一直都在适应，那个特别的自己，不知去了何方。

每天要面对这些复杂的情绪，不知自己能撑多久。