Wednesday, November 30, 2011

爱上你的我~

我曾问过我自己,爱你会后悔吗?说真的,没后悔过,但曾想放弃。很矛盾吧?不后悔干嘛想放弃?爱你,让我苦,让我乐,放弃是因为看不到我们的未来。挣扎了很久,也烦了很多人(真的很不好意思),现在,我只想好好爱你,真的不希望会有放弃的那念头了。

刚才,在朋友的面子书看到一篇文章

男朋友不要很帥、做到這些就值得你奮不顧身了.

1.記得你的生日,鞋號,密碼,最怕的事,甚至你的生理週期。
2.告訴你——24小時隨時打電話給他,因為有了你,手機24h不關機。
3.重大的事情和你商量, 吃你吃剩的東西。
4.有點害羞,但曾在分別街頭,大聲說我愛你。
5.言而有信。
6.擁抱很久,很緊——每次你起身時幾乎是需要慢慢推開他。
7.睡的比你遲一點,醒來早一點。
8.掛電話時總是等你先掛,網上下線時總是等你先下。
9.笑起來很像個壞蛋——其實不是。
10.常常幫助別人,沒有為什麼。
11.雨天散步背你過積水,說:你還可以再胖一些啊。
12.吵嘴時不會一走了之。
13.錯了會認錯
14. 常常說,有我呢。
15.你做的菜他每樣都愛吃,要求明天再做。
16.輕輕擰開你擰不開的汽水瓶。
17.告訴你——不要省錢。
18.從不因為遊戲中而對你不理不睬。
19.他其實很早就對他的父母說起你。
20.如果你不喜歡他的某個朋友,他會充分考慮你的感受。
21.吵架時你要他還給你送給他的禮物,他堅決不還。
22.你失眠時他陪你聊天。
23.比你高,你取不到的東西讓他取。
24.在店的洗手間外面等你。
25.你感冒了,他還是會用你的杯子喝水。
26. 喜歡你,從未猶豫,從不把你和別的女人比較。
27.身上的味道很好聞,但他自己不知道。
28.對女人有風度,也有距離。
29. 真的可以隨時找到他。
30.和他在一起不怕死——也不害怕活下去……


By: 就 算 世 界 末 日 来 临 了 , 但 有 了 你 , 我 不 怕

我心想,一旦爱上了,这一切都很正常吧?

很想问你哦,你和那个他是什么关系啊?不管答案如何,我都能接受吧,可能,有些会让我很难过,可是我想要你开心吧,要你过得好。

时常在幻想,我们在一齐的时光,有时还不知不觉地在哪儿傻笑,还被朋友看到,哈哈

一个星期只能见你一两次,你知道吗?我特别喜欢周末,原因你应该知吧?

牵你的手会有什么感觉呢?



Saturday, November 26, 2011

我爱她~


我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬於這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐

如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴 越多的空白
該怎麼去愛


叮当[我爱他]

好一首歌,完整的把我的心声唱出来了。走在放弃的边界,很不舍得。你在乎吗?

多么想像那天醉了一样,就怎么跟你告白,没有理智,没有考虑那么多。


Friday, November 25, 2011

一次又一次~

一次又一次的希望,一次又一次的失望
一次又一次的犹豫,一次又一次的放弃
一次又一次的勇敢,一次又一次的软弱
一次又一次的想念,一次又一次的冷漠

是我陪不起你吧? 你的生活似乎很好,我的出现会带给你负担吧?
很想问你,你会介意吗?

我能怎么做呢?能告诉我吗?


Tuesday, November 22, 2011

迷路~

最近的生活,迷迷糊糊,毫无方向感的。很害怕,很迷惑。功课的压力,心里的欲望都逼得我喘不过气来。

那天,就为了一点小事,让自己跌倒了,生命多了一个污点,却让我的生活有了一点点的改变。

以后的我,会是怎样的呢?

Friday, November 18, 2011

Exhaustion~

Recently, I get frustrated very easily...I dont feel like talking...I dont feel like wanna cheer people up...just wanna keep quiet and observe everything...This maybe due to homework pressure is building up...and I am under stress...Hope I will change after everything is over.

Okay, I start complain to her...I dont know where this will lead to...but at least I din do anything...at least for now, I think is alright...I dun wanna regret oh..=(

3 more lab reports still waiting to be done...1 big lab assignment on hand...1 or 2 more coming..so total up, 5 or 6 reports need to be done...before final exam which is in less than a month time...beside labs...2 more quiz coming up next week...wow...

Sry guys, if my unstable emotion get you....I am exhausted.


Monday, November 14, 2011

The last day~

Time flies, in a blink of eyes, one week have pass...2 more hours my no fb challenge will be complete..with flying color! wahaha....

The semester is near the end...the intense period of a semester..everyone is under serious stress....heard some of my friend said, they hardly sleep at night...pity them =(... everyday facing those "strange homework" only they know me, I duno them...i keep thinking when will be my turn to have a sleepless night? tomorrow have a quiz...I prepared for few days, but cant find the key...so close yet so far...where did I do wrong? Well, I know, I shouldn't be complaining, as there are people living on this earth is baring the stress much greater than mine. Consider myself have a good life =)...

Kinda addicted to the song “ 孩子气” from the movie "You are an apple of my eye"...the lyrics and melody is so warm and so gentle...I cant help myself to miss her when listening...feel like wanna go watch tat movie with her. so much thing wanna ask her.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

The Love stories~

Recently, I watched 2 romance movie...Love you you and You are the apple of my eye...both video is very sweet and have a lot of good comments...well, I din regret that I watched =)....the story plot keep reminding me of her...I not sure which part of the movies is similar to our life...but she just keep appearing in my head...the feeling is so sweet ><"...I kinda wish I can watch again the video with her.

The urge to tell her my feeling is getting stronger..due to all the hints....I wonder how will she react...hope not the worst case...wish i got the courage when time comes!...dun wanna miss the chance again...once again, hope  I am not too late...

Today is the 5th day without fb...time flies! 2 more day and I am free..haha...somehow I feel like I am a retard to give myself this challenge...and cause so much of inconvenient...but it work for some reason..haha..


Thursday, November 10, 2011

3rd day~

Watched naruto anime just now...it is a filler, but in the story, they mention something about love...and make me start thinking...they said, if you really love someone, you will do whatever you can to make them happy...what is my calling? that step, i hesitated for about one year, will her disappointed? I really wonder am I too late? that question 我会太迟吗?keep repeating in my mind...feel like wanna ask her...

Should I just go for her like that? why I must do so much of thinking? she is in all my blog post...my mind, my dreams...should I keep on thinking? or just go because I love her and only because I love her? so much question mark...I guess I gonna give it shot, no matter if I gonna bang on wall or not...tat will took all my courage!..I know everyone is supporting me...thx guys...

Okay, back to my daily life...My day today...3rd day without fb...things are not going so well, I starting to carve for fb!...4 days to go, hope I can survive!...gambateh!...


Wednesday, November 9, 2011

2nd day of no fb

This morning, I have class at 10.30, so Elmer and I went to the catering uncle's place to have breakfast, woo, there got Mee Java...It is quite suit my taste as it is sweet and not so spicy..nice! and the uncle recognize us.

Okay, today I went  home early, because I left my mouse and laptop adapter at home...no comp = no need do homework!

1st thing I sense when I enter my room is tat terrible rotten egg smell....zzz, then I just realize, I forget to flip my laptop cooler to check, once I did, and OMG...there are still some rotten egg remain under it...ahh, disaster! Hope the smell can quickly disappear from my room...

Woah!, while I writing this, the weather just suddenly change!....It was sunny few minutes ago, then now, the sky is dark, and raining heavily! and strong wind too...woahhh freaking weather!

2nd day of no fb...well, it is quite boring without it...but without it, my day is more productive!


Edit:  Woo the raining stopped...and a big perfect rainbow and its reflecting image is formed on the sky just outside my window! so pretty =) are u seeing it??

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

My day~

Woah!! 1st i gonna say what I experiencing now!, immerse in the awful smell of the rotten egg..zzz OMG!! Seriously, the real rotten egg, 1st time seeing it, 1st time smelling it...I swear I never wan a 2nd time!. and it kinda like spoiled the board omg, it cost RM1k man! =( Hope it is alright.

Okay, back to what I was planning to write, haha basically something like my dairy. =) Today is my 1st challenge to no on fb for one week. =) I pass hehe 6 more days to go...and my plan work well, no fb I actually will do my homework...haiz, too bad I need to this method to force myself to do homework.

Last night on the phone with my mom, and she said something surprise me! She actually ask me to go confess too? omg! more and more signs telling me to go for her, but why I still hesitating? I guess sry is not enough rite? =( Lord please give me courage.

House owner already chasing me to pay the rental fee already...still have one ppl haven pay...==", really tired to take charge of this house...being a Mr nice guy is really hard!

What a day....tomorrow is another long day, I will be alright...missed you all from fb


Monday, November 7, 2011

My release~

Yesterday, I finally gather all my courage to post out that status with hidden msg in it on fb...but I guess she din online..well, she missed it...I missed it...I am so tired, feel like wanna give up but cant let go...hang in the middle, disturbed many people..haiz...why is it so hard to tell her tat 3 words? haiz...that 6 words, for some reason, I put all my hope in it...haiz..

Keep saying I am busy, but I cant keep my motivation up...every homework is stacked up...final exam is in less than a month time...the stress is building up, why not the motivation?  everyday, facing the computer, the word homework keep appearing in my mind...

Feel like wanna run away, to somewhere there is no one there...fee like wanna watch the night sky filled by the stars all by myself alone...where is the gentle breeze I dream? seriously, I miss the old time...but my memory faded, is just like I have lost my memory...where are u? the one I dream?

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Seriously, Honestly, I Really Love You.

Get hurt and get back up, but every of this happening is just because of me...my own thinking is injuring myself. I wish to stop this, I wish to go on...she is just too much...I don't know why I still hold on...but the fact still there, the feeling, getting stronger everyday...Every time she is around, I get very nervous, I don't dare to look into her eyes, I twist my tongue every time i try to talk to her...well...I don't know what to do anymore...How am I gonna tell her? ><"

Seriously, Honestly, I Really Love You.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

=( Sad and Happy =)

Wake up in the Saturday morning covered in gloomy sky, knowing that there are tons of homework waiting for me to mark them as done, but my mind just cant focus as there are someone occupied it. Ahh, life can be much better.

Yesterday, I coincidentally came across a song call "get it right" from glee...the lyrics basically is describing most of the teenage life. Struggling to offer their best but end up messed up and leave with scattered heart, and that is not the end, they have to fix the mess somehow. =( Being a Jack of all trades, I know my best is isn't enough but i tried my best somehow. I can hide my sadness with a smile, but it just wont go away.

Ahh enough with the emotional things,

Last night, our embedded lab finally worked!!! haha, but we killed the adapter. well, we din't actually tested the final coding as we killed the adapter and the board is not working...haha, base on the values it look find hahaha.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

My thinking~

This morning, Js come and complain blogger can't is not functioning..I cant and try with a long post but end up having the same problem as his, the post only have the title and no content o.O...haha, now i posting with the new interface which I dont really like...Okay, what I wrote for my post in this morning was about horoscopes, Aquarius male and Virgo Female. The article about Aqua male is somehow very pathetic, I duno why, and that is not the only article about Aqua describe Aquarius till so sad =(. The article describe Virgo female as princess =) wee....

I am kinda regret to reject the offer of rev to ask me to join the leadership retreat...It sound quite fun =( and she will be there too..but I really dont have time to spare, Home works, tests, Assignments, Labs haiz, I wish I can be there...well, gonna back to work haha...


Music~