Missing her~

It is 12 something in the mid night, I feel so awake as I just woke up from my evening nap...spent whole day with church =)....I have lots of homework in hand, but today is a special day for God.

Ahh, my biological clock is messed up again hahaha, I wonder if I can wake up for school tomorrow. Busy week ahead, and time flies...this morning, Wendy suddenly asked me, how long I have studied here, and how long will I staying here. I suddenly have the sour feeling as I think I soon will leave them one day, my dearest church friends. =(

and her!...I seeing sign and hint asking me to go for her, I wonder if they are from God...My brain keeps telling me that I will eventually hurt her and myself in the end. This kind of relationship, I cant foresee the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometime, I really feel like I wanna just go for her like that, without considering the consequences, but every time, I held myself back. so now I still struggling, trying the let go but end up held on much tighter...

Wrong timing~

zzz..sick at the wrong time..haiz, I know how to ask other people to tc themselves but i fail to tc myself hahaha....Ytd nite, i went McD for supper, and that is the reason everything started...1st thing in the morning, i woke up and feel that my throat abit sore...den due to the lab thingy, i stay at the air conditioned lib for the whole day...and now i have block nose...

Elmer's gf come to kch to play for few days...wonder wat will happen haha...

time flies, when think back, i actually live in kch for about 3 years..and 2 more years i will be leaving here...I dun wanna leave here =(...especially I am so attached to my church and friends...and her!...still wondering should I tell her?

Deep in my heart, I wish i can have a long lasting relationship, I dun wanna hurt anyone and myself nor wasting time...well, it is very nice to have someone supporting you and accompany you in most of the time...but love is not a game, is a life...dun wan go and crushing ppl's life due to my weakness hahaha...Sry, if you are waiting =(

Woo!!! =)

Just finished my Dynamics test....it is alot easier than i tot =)...one load lifted up from my shoulder...and more to go zzz...embedded lab 2, my group have only done part 1,2 & 4 still got 3 and 5 zzz..and we need to demo it this thusday...other than that, I have a actuators and sensors lab report need to write, next week got a test...dynamics lab or assignment is giving out this week, embedded lab 3 need submit in this week..church youth program need to come out in this week..OMG!!

Scary 2nd year 2nd sem zzz...

The life~

It is getting a lot busier this sem, due to i took 4 heavy subjects this semester...I hardly have time to let myself relax abit...I have rejected many of the camps i actually wanted to go just to let myself have more time to focus on this overloaded works..

Before I know it, she already occupied my mind most of the time, even in dreams...I dream of her very often, ntg sweet or scary...well, weird dreams, with her in there...doing basically ntg...hahah...I guess i kinda slow, she actually offered many times, but until know i just realize it..o.O...well, I wonder is she asked that out of her kindness or it actually mean smtg?...ok, again, I admit i bad in this thing.

My life~

It has been awhile since last post...Church events, studies, labs, assignments, games, sports..i barely have time to sit quietly and write a blog post...and I just realized today, My fingers has completely healed << this is a bad sign as i din play guitar for quite awhile...zzz

For some reason, I addicted to one of the Facebook game call Edgeworld...zzz kinda regret that i started playing..shall stop right away !! My study is barely catching up...should give more effort..

Another thing is I started to read a manga called "Eyeshield 21" it is a meaningful and interesting manga...I help i find myself back..hope this determination will last!...I gonna change, to a better person =) Laziness go away pls

Starting to get better with her =) and less suffering ady, maybe i lose my grip ady...but in the other hand..zzz one of my buddy is starting to get on my nerves! Freaking mama boy attitude and 小气鬼...he is worst until no word can describe him perfectly zzz...i have ntg to say...cant imagine such human exist zzz

Phew, tat feels relieve..=)